about me

(using song lyrics)

i’m not robert frost
if i wrote a poem about decision
it would start and it would end in the same place
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i’ve tried to know which words to sing so many times
and I’ve tried to know which chords to play
and I’ve tried to make it rhyme
and i’ve tried to find the key that all good songs are in
and I’ve tried to find the notes to make
that great resounding din
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and in the naked light I saw
ten thousand people, maybe more
people talking without speaking
people hearing without listening
people writing songs that voices never shared
and no one dared disturb the sound of silence
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i listen to my words, but they fall far below
i let my music take me where my heart wants to go
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i’ve made some long, long phone calls to my friends at home
and i told them where i’ve been and the places i’m going
and they said, “wow, that’s incredible, but we already know
because of that long, long song you wrote”
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if you’ve got a song inside
don’t hide it, don’t lock it
and remember all the good times
and keep them in your pocket
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i’m not a good person
ask anyone who knows me
i’m mean and bitter
and a failure at everything that i say i believe
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i feel it in my soul
i feel the empty hole
the cup that can’t be filled
and i feel it in my blood
in the fire and the flood
the beast that can’t be killed
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it’s a hand-me-down, the thoughts are broken
perhaps they’re better left unsung
i don’t know, don’t really care
let there be songs to fill the air
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full disclosure, i am a monster
a creature of despair, not that that should be a cause for concern
if there’s one thing i’ve learned in all my years here
it’s that despair is less abundant in those who understand
how to plant their hearts in community gardens
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how could i ever sleep at night?
my conscience left me petrified
staring at the ceiling wide awake
reliving all my worst mistakes
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and all the blood and guts inside us
germinated into timeless pages
stained with lines of lovely prose
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you came to take us
all things go, all things go
to recreate us
all things grow, all things grow
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say your prayers to whomever
you call out to in the night
keep the chains tight
make it through this year
if it kills us outright
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everyone i love is gonna die
and i will die as well
i think about this before I sleep
and have since I was a child
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don’t you forget about dying
don’t you forget about your friend death
don’t you forget that you will die
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dear shadow alive and well
how can the body die?
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i am not afraid to keep on living
i am not afraid to walk this world alone
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and I get the urge for going when the meadow grass is turning brown
summertime is falling down, winter's closing in
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you can be anything you want to be
just turn yourself into anything
you think that you could ever be
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it had something to do with the rain
leaching loamy dirt
and the way the back lane came alive
half moon whispered, "go"
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is he depressed or is he a mess?
does he feel totally worthless?
who came up with person man?
degraded man, person man
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but wait until tomorrow morning
learning to be you is what hurts most
close your eyes and hold your terror close
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it's easy to be right
when everything repeats
dig below the surface, find your insecurities
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don't think I'm pointing fingers
these are crocodile tears
it's no one's fault but mine
that i shut up
for all of eighteen years
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un jour jе reviendrai
je tе retrouverai
avec des histoires de voyage
et les souvenirs tatoués dans le bronzage
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dear future self, it's me again
the girl you buried way back when
i see you gave in to curiosity
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most people were overjoyed, they took to their boats
i thought it less like a lake and more like a moat
the rhythm of my footsteps crossing flatlands to your door
have been silenced forevermore
the distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
it seems farther than ever before, oh no
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on ira tout en haut des collines
regarder tout ce qu'octobre illumine