about me

(using song lyrics)

i’m not robert frost
if i wrote a poem about decision
it would start and it would end in the same place
i’ve tried to know which words to sing so many times
and I’ve tried to know which chords to play
and I’ve tried to make it rhyme
and i’ve tried to find the key that all good songs are in
and I’ve tried to find the notes to make
that great resounding din
and in the naked light I saw
ten thousand people, maybe more
people talking without speaking
people hearing without listening
people writing songs that voices never shared
and no one dared disturb the sound of silence
i listen to my words, but they fall far below
i let my music take me where my heart wants to go
i’ve made some long, long phone calls to my friends at home
and i told them where i’ve been and the places i’m going
and they said, “wow, that’s incredible, but we already know
because of that long, long song you wrote”
if you’ve got a song inside
don’t hide it, don’t lock it
and remember all the good times
and keep them in your pocket
i’m not a good person
ask anyone who knows me
i’m mean and bitter
and a failure at everything that i say i believe
i feel it in my soul
i feel the empty hole
the cup that can’t be filled
and i feel it in my blood
in the fire and the flood
the beast that can’t be killed
it’s a hand-me-down, the thoughts are broken
perhaps they’re better left unsung
i don’t know, don’t really care
let there be songs to fill the air
full disclosure, i am a monster
a creature of despair, not that that should be a cause for concern
if there’s one thing i’ve learned in all my years here
it’s that despair is less abundant in those who understand
how to plant their hearts in community gardens
how could i ever sleep at night?
my conscience left me petrified
staring at the ceiling wide awake
reliving all my worst mistakes
and all the blood and guts inside us
germinated into timeless pages
stained with lines of lovely prose
you came to take us
all things go, all things go
to recreate us
all things grow, all things grow
say your prayers to whomever
you call out to in the night
keep the chains tight
make it through this year
if it kills us outright
everyone i love is gonna die
and i will die as well
i think about this before I sleep
and have since I was a child
don’t you forget about dying
don’t you forget about your friend death
don’t you forget that you will die
dear shadow alive and well
how can the body die?
i am not afraid to keep on living
i am not afraid to walk this world alone
and I get the urge for going when the meadow grass is turning brown
summertime is falling down, winter's closing in
you can be anything you want to be
just turn yourself into anything
you think that you could ever be